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10 May 2010 @ 07:20 pm
Mehhh, do you ever have one of those days where all your insecurities just rise to the surface? And often about the stupidest things, as well. Yesterday night and today have been just that.

See now, logically I can tell myself I'm being a fool, and that people get busy and it doesn't mean anything. Lmfao, I get busy enough myself and flake out.

I guess it's just that until about two weeks ago, there were a few friends who I rp'd with a lot - if I wasn't asking them for something, they were asking me. Now it's just me that asks them, and more often than not they're reluctant or say YAY LETS and then immediately get called afk, or get super busy.

I know, I know. Crai moar.

I guess I'm just worried I'm bothering them. My biggest fear online is that the people I chat to or rp with, will realise I'm not worth their time and they could be spending it with better and cooler people.

It's just my own insecurities and I need to get over them.

This entry had no real purpose but to get that out of my mind, so I can potentially see how childish and stupid these fears are.
Dee or Dawn: peekaboodawnnamira on May 10th, 2010 06:39 pm (UTC)
I hope I haven't been making you feel like this.

A lot of people have been having finals and stuff recently, that's a possible reason?

HC IIIX Hercules Tres Iqusmachineish on May 10th, 2010 07:35 pm (UTC)
Oh yes, I know it's finals and all that stuff. Like I said, this is just a brain fart or general idiocy.
Dee or Dawndawnnamira on May 10th, 2010 07:38 pm (UTC)
But that doesn't mean it feels any better bb, I know. >:
HC IIIX Hercules Tres Iqus: Bluntmachineish on May 10th, 2010 07:39 pm (UTC)
Yeaah, but it's no reason to get emo. It's more a reason to stab yourself in the eyes and go.

Oi. Stop being a whiny git.
Dee or Dawn: *flails*dawnnamira on May 10th, 2010 07:40 pm (UTC)
But you need your eyes D:
HC IIIX Hercules Tres Iqus: Brain stem connectionmachineish on May 10th, 2010 07:44 pm (UTC)
Dee or Dawndawnnamira on May 10th, 2010 07:45 pm (UTC)
HC IIIX Hercules Tres Iqus: Negativemachineish on May 10th, 2010 07:45 pm (UTC)
Tres says no, don't argue with the gun-toting robostalker.
Dee or Dawndawnnamira on May 10th, 2010 07:46 pm (UTC)
Well Tres should know humans need eyes.
Cain Knightlord // Crusnik 01rebirththeworld on May 10th, 2010 07:49 pm (UTC)
Cain says terrans don't need eyes... or squishy organs... mwahaha.
Dee or Dawn: buuuuuuuuutdawnnamira on May 10th, 2010 07:50 pm (UTC)
Cain isn't the type of person to listen to if you like to be alive!
Cain Knightlord // Crusnik 01: Crusnik 01 judges yourebirththeworld on May 10th, 2010 07:51 pm (UTC)
Is that so?
Dee or Dawn: AND SUDDENLYdawnnamira on May 10th, 2010 07:52 pm (UTC)
Yes, it is.
ordenpuppeteer on May 10th, 2010 07:54 pm (UTC)
Trust me instead?
Dee or Dawn: O_Odawnnamira on May 10th, 2010 07:55 pm (UTC)
...I don't think it'd be smart either.
ordenpuppeteer on May 10th, 2010 07:56 pm (UTC)
But look how angelic I am~
Dee or Dawndawnnamira on May 10th, 2010 07:59 pm (UTC)
Looks can be deceiving though.
Suoh Tamaki: * Hamster home for the winterdaddyhost on May 10th, 2010 08:03 pm (UTC)
Y-You're so cruel.
Dee or Dawndawnnamira on May 10th, 2010 08:04 pm (UTC)
Oh, don't be like that Tamaki >:
christinesfolly on May 10th, 2010 08:05 pm (UTC)
Dee or Dawndawnnamira on May 10th, 2010 08:07 pm (UTC)
Okay, I don't know this canon.

But don't cry!
christinesfolly on May 10th, 2010 08:09 pm (UTC)
Sister My Sister, an amazing film about the Papin murder case.

This is Léa Papin, and she was born nervous.
Dee or Dawndawnnamira on May 10th, 2010 08:11 pm (UTC)
I see, I see \o/
"Two Guns"; Gabrielknowsgunfu on May 10th, 2010 07:33 pm (UTC)
Considering you're already telling yourself you're being silly, I think you know that. But the fact that people were asking you to RP and all means they enjoy it. Sometimes they really do just get busy, and sometimes they just need to take a break from RP.

Seriously man, chill. This is about as daft as you deciding that I don't like you.
"Two Guns"; Gabriel: pic#100610192knowsgunfu on May 10th, 2010 07:33 pm (UTC)
...And this is Niki not realising what account she's logged into before she posts. Ohhai.
HC IIIX Hercules Tres Iqusmachineish on May 10th, 2010 07:35 pm (UTC)

I know, I'm so aware I'm being silly. Gah, I just need to smack some sense into my daft brain.

Tch, stfu. I know you don't like me, it's why you're getting possessed smoke alarm pieces in the post.
HC IIIX Hercules Tres Iqus: ??machineish on May 10th, 2010 07:36 pm (UTC)
This is also Ena. In a random rp account. Derp.
"Two Guns"; Gabriel: pic#100610088knowsgunfu on May 10th, 2010 07:38 pm (UTC)
Hey, I think everyone gets like that sometimes. As long as you don't go as far as whining about how everyone is evil and hates you and is purposely avoiding you and making secrets about it and bitching behind their backs, I think you're at a normal level of silly. It's when you cross that line that it starts getting ridiculous and you know you need to chill a little and step away from the computer. Insecurity is a normal thing, believe it or not. Trick is to not let it get the better of you.

...Keep your bloody possessed smoke alarm pieces, damnit. I told you I don't want them. =|
HC IIIX Hercules Tres Iqus: BANGmachineish on May 10th, 2010 07:43 pm (UTC)
Lol yes

I know, I'm not that bad yet I don't think. Except I know all about that evil secret you posted about me, and the spy cameras you've installed in my room.

/shifty paranoid eyes.

It's on its way to you with love and beeping.
"Two Guns"; Gabriel: pic#100610298knowsgunfu on May 10th, 2010 07:46 pm (UTC)
...That is so, so creepy coming from a Tres account wtf.

But yeah, considering you're mature enough to be aware it's dumb I doubt you'll ever be that bad. Which is a good thing. =|b

And on that note, get your arse back over to BDR, before we all decide you've abandoned us or something.

...Oh god no not the beeping. DX
Cain Knightlord // Crusnik 01: Squeeeeerebirththeworld on May 10th, 2010 07:48 pm (UTC)
Is it any better coming from Cain? Because he is mega creepy anyway =D

No, I hope having the perspective to know these insecure days are just that, insecure days and not world crashing and dying everyone hates me, is enough to keep me from getting that bad.

...BDR... >.> ... I posted there like a week ago or something, I think. /ninjas

"Two Guns"; Gabriel: pic#100642598knowsgunfu on May 10th, 2010 07:58 pm (UTC)
sdyuhgijfo NO. WORSE. MUCH WORSE.

Yeeeaah. Get some chocolate or something, set up a random post somewhere else and just have fun. xD Works wonders.

Needs more Byapants. 8|

ordenpuppeteer on May 10th, 2010 08:02 pm (UTC)
You surely can't object to this angelic creature?

Sounds good. I might set up a random rp post somewhere. Hm. Where.

Byapants, we'll see.

"Two Guns"; Gabriel: pic#100610182knowsgunfu on May 10th, 2010 08:33 pm (UTC)
...You know, I've got to wonder what playing such creepy bastards says about you. =|a

Anywhere. \8D/ I've had the most fun recently with random Dear Mun posts, oddly enough.

Yes Byapants. |D

MewtwoWarrior: Mewtwo and Mewmewtwowarrior on May 10th, 2010 10:07 pm (UTC)
*huggles* I have days like that all the time, so I know how you're feeling.

I still want to RP with you sometime, I just haven't been feeling well lately, I haven't been getting enough sleep. I do miss RPing with you though.

And you're one of the best and coolest people on the Internet, so you don't need to worry about that.