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23 November 2009 @ 06:20 pm
Ave Maria  
This entry is under an lj cut because it's pointless whining about fuck all. Feel free to skip past it.

I like to hope I always try to be nice when I'm meeting new people, because I know I'm nervous about it so I'd think they make the same effort with me. Not going into details, because I don't want to hurt the parties involved, but that wasn't so recently and I was quite hurt by a player I had only recently met. I now feel uncomfortable to play in that community and even uncomfortable playing the character I do in general, just in case it upsets them further.

I know, over-reaction much. I'm just unused to upsetting people and it's really bothered me that I have.

I think I'm a little irrational because of being groggy and shit, and I was definitely over-emotional when it happened because of lack of sleep.

I just needed a mini rant (which, lol, so vague) and I don't want to hurt the other people involved any more by letting them know how much it's affected my confidence in this character. I'll get over it, I just have to tell myself to stfu being a whiny bitch.

Okay, shutting up now.

In other news. THANK-YOU, EM! ♥ Paid time for Byakuya for Christmas, ilu.
Wintaerwintaerland on November 23rd, 2009 08:13 pm (UTC)
*poke poke prod poke*

Don't ask, for some reason this was all I could really think of... maybe it's the lack of sleep
Dee or Dawn: ♥♥dawnnamira on November 23rd, 2009 10:11 pm (UTC)
Ena, if you bother them by just playing, they don't have a problem with you, they have a problem with the world and need to fuck off. *cuddles tight*

...Damn, I was going to get Bya paid time. *pouts*
arthoniel: Random- Flowerarthoniel on November 23rd, 2009 11:42 pm (UTC)
I know the feeling. I was once playing a character in a game when I upset a few people with something that I did, and I felt so bad about it... I literally just couldn't get over it. I'm sure you'll do better than I did though, considering how what I did was entirely my own fault~
⚡ The voice in your head;rakka_rouzeki on November 24th, 2009 02:58 am (UTC)
You shouldn't let it worry you, bb, just do what you always do. One person is not worth the trouble, nor the worrying. Far more people are going to miss playing with you if you let one person's shit dictate what you do.

You didn't upset anyone, that person just has serious fucking issues, takes themself far too seriously, and needs to get a goddamn life.

Love you sweetie. ♥